I'm so happy.1 Right now, it
feels as if the world has a thousand possibilities, and I finally have the
momentum to follow through.2 Part of me wishes I was a little bit
dumb. You know, one that can mindlessly resolve to do what I need to everyday
and block out stress and mostly my laziness.3 Until then, I will just be a mind with dreams.4
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1 It could be starting my day with interval jogging or
the Summermoon coffee after work. It’s been a pretty good day.
2 Again, could be this morning’s workout or the
caffeine intoxication.
3 I sometimes wonder what it would be like to have
someone control me. Wait a second, let me explain. This person would be able to
help me mindlessly get things done, to act when asked, not plan. When I come
home, someone could tell me to go practice my viola, instead of me
contemplating practicing. It’s odd that just planning and knowing the long haul
of what has to be done wears me out.
4 Like every person. And carry around that belligerent
arrogance that I could have done something with my life.
