gnawing: why would u agree?
linked: I've messed up. I miss the part of you that was sweet & warm, but I'm also slightly turned on by this "I take no bullshit" part of you. It's concise, terse, and feels like this side of you would be more capable to flip and push me to get what you want. My cooperation would be taken, not given.
gnawing: I don't have time for you, and I don't want to hear you complain abt it.
linked: ok
gnawing: Why do you want me?
linked: You want the shallow reasons? Well, no duh, something about you attracts me. You seem capable and logical, like I tell you often, I lack that. On the level of physical attraction (the shallow part), to me, you seem so exotic. I guess growing up on the border has given me that lust for morenos. The deeper reasons? I feel safe with you. I have no fears that anything will be uncomfortable. It kinda scares me how much I trust you though.
gnawing: wat do u think I think abt ur body?
linked: Idk & that's where I'm scared. Most people are attracted to what they look like, so I'm worried you find me unattractive or worse, repulsive. You don't tell me anything. You make no comments, so in that respect, I don't know why I'm here. So I never ask because i may not like the answer.
gnawing: r u crying?
linked: of course, I'm a girl. I feel vunerable & ugly. You're always so confident & sure. You won't stick your body in front of the camera for me to judge.
gnawing: its too much fun to watch you being tormented like this.
5/22/10, Laredo
linked: I've messed up. I miss the part of you that was sweet & warm, but I'm also slightly turned on by this "I take no bullshit" part of you. It's concise, terse, and feels like this side of you would be more capable to flip and push me to get what you want. My cooperation would be taken, not given.
gnawing: I don't have time for you, and I don't want to hear you complain abt it.
linked: ok
gnawing: Why do you want me?
linked: You want the shallow reasons? Well, no duh, something about you attracts me. You seem capable and logical, like I tell you often, I lack that. On the level of physical attraction (the shallow part), to me, you seem so exotic. I guess growing up on the border has given me that lust for morenos. The deeper reasons? I feel safe with you. I have no fears that anything will be uncomfortable. It kinda scares me how much I trust you though.
gnawing: wat do u think I think abt ur body?
linked: Idk & that's where I'm scared. Most people are attracted to what they look like, so I'm worried you find me unattractive or worse, repulsive. You don't tell me anything. You make no comments, so in that respect, I don't know why I'm here. So I never ask because i may not like the answer.
gnawing: r u crying?
linked: of course, I'm a girl. I feel vunerable & ugly. You're always so confident & sure. You won't stick your body in front of the camera for me to judge.
gnawing: its too much fun to watch you being tormented like this.
5/22/10, Laredo
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